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when mountains speak, wise men listen

when mountain speak.. wise men listen..

i miss hiking, camping, or just even walking through the jungle at the mountain
i missed walking with sweat streaming down like waterfall…walkin in waist-deep puddle of mud.. looking for foothold among slippery rocks.. avoiding the thorns rattan which is always ready to greet my skin.. how it feels to be bitten by “pacet”
i missed when the rain is falling and soaked the ground..the smell of wet soil…when all the water droplets come to earth and join me to enjoy the beauty of the planet..
i missed when rain is stop.. then the haze slowly coming and hugged me in the cold embrace of the mist..
i missed when unpacking my backpack…. find spot for layin.. make a shelter… find some firewood.. while the others cookin sum meals… or just  making sweet hot tea with honey…. and the others just sit and watching..full of  laughter and joy…. full of togetherness… full of peacefulness…
i missed when we all start to talking.. about daily activities.. about love… about friendship.. philosophy..religion..history..science.. sport.. music.. people..future…about everything… and.. about nothing.. just talk…
i missed just lay down under the starry night star  and doin nothin.. count the shootin stars….feel the evening breeze blanketing warmth..feel the darkness of night blanketing the bright of day.. feel the silent of the night.. feel the beauty of the universe…  feel the calm.. feel the peace..
i missed when summit attack… when racing with uncle sun.. to find out.. who first arrived at summit..
i missed when uncle sun is rises.. from slit carpet made of clouds… share his light,, his passion,, his loyalty to us..like trying to tell to us.. this is our planet..this is the place when we all live.. this is our heritage for our future… go.. and shine this planet with your own light.. like i shine this planet with my light…
i missed everything when mountain called me back..
when mountains speak… i’ll listen..
when mountains speak.. wise men listen..

regards
AzAzEL

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currently im working on my project at riau site..

from just 5 days plan became 3 weeks.. hahahha.. this is 1st time i have problem that cant be solved fast.. :p

it doesnt matter how long i’ll stay here,, but it matters how the trouble should solved.. not much,, but need extra attention..  really works under presure for me.. :D

i feel so useless, capable of doing nothing and almost crazy…  feel like this trouble is the worst i ever had.. but..

2 nights ago.. i read an email to indocisco mailing list..  a world class senior network engineer from indonesia share one of his experience there  (indocisco mailing list)..

weww..  i dunno he can read my mind or just coincidence.. but wut he wrote totaly change my point of view bout my project.. thax to you himawan..

below,, i copy it and share with you guys..  read it and re define by yourself about “works under pressure”

Himawan Nugroho to indocisco

Saturday, January 15, 2011 Define Under Pressure During my life as engineer
and consultant I have been dealing with many different types of customer in
many different types of engagement and project, in many different countries.
There are some good customers and challenging customers. Good customers are
those who know their network very well, know many technology options
available and the most important is they know what they want. So they are
just looking for advices and best practices from a networking vendor like
Cisco. Once the customers get those, most of the times they even implement
the solution themselves. Tough and challenging customers usually are those
who don’t know their network, who don’t have proper documentation of their
setup, and most of the time they don’t know what they want. It’s not a bad
thing for someone who works in professional services organization like me,
as part of my responsibility is to become technical advisor to provide
guidance and direction for such customers.

Some other customers just don’t make sense, in term of considering the
timeframe to do the tasks or projects. They want the project to be done
overnight. Some don’t want to listen to technical explanation of why some
tasks can’t be done in short time. Others don’t understand how to put
priority to the tasks in the project so they just put unnecessary pressure
to complete some non-important task and don’t bother with critical task.
Some put very high expectation and demand the vendor to deliver everything,
within short time, despite the scope of work agreement has mentioned and
limit the deliverables during the project.

For some other customers, they are just acting the way they think they
should be. Several years ago one government and powerful customer told me
they couldn’t accept any failure in the project and they would cancel my
working permit and kick me out from the country if I make any mistake during
the migration. And they showed they mean it by asking me to bring my
passport during one critical migration night. One high rank officer from
different government customer said he would put me in prison if someone was
able to break the WPA mechanism that I enabled to secure his wireless
network. Other customer (yes I know, I got lucky I had chance to deal with
many different government customers ?) mentioned he would send police
officer to pick me up from home if I don’t show up for the meeting.

So after dealing with many good, tough, challenging and weird customers
above I thought I have seen it all. I thought I knew the meaning of work
under pressure. Until one day I had a chance to interview one guy from Iraq,
later became my colleague and friend, for a network engineer position in my
previous company. The time was around a couple of years after the US Army
invasion of Iraq and they were probably still looking for the Weapon of Mass
Destruction just like in Green Zone movie.

After asking series of technical questions, I came to a normal question that
I always ask to every candidate I interview: can you work under pressure? He
threw funny look to me and started laughing. I didn’t quite understand. Then
he said: Himawan, define under pressure. I just came to Dubai from Iraq 2
weeks ago. For many years I worked there, everyday on my way to work I heard
the explosions. I have seen shooting actions. And just week before I came
here I was driving to go back home and didn’t realize there was a US Army
checkpoint so I was a bit too fast when approaching them. Everybody was
pointing his machine gun and yelling me to stop and they might have started
shooting if I didn’t push the break as hard as I could. I may not know the
technology as much as other network engineer does, but I can tell you that
Dubai is like Heaven compare to where I came from. In Iraq, every morning to
wake up and find yourself still alive is a privilege.

I was surprised to hear his answer. Next thing I know I put my highest
recommendation to hire him immediately. He was a mere CCNP at that time so
from technical skills he lacks several things required for the job but it
doesn’t matter. Lack of technical skill can be improved. But the attitude
and the ability to handle the situation, especially if you have to deal with
funny customers (please read the third paragraph again), is what matters. I
know someone like him would be successful some day. And after working with
him for few years he proved that I was right.

So next time you feel like you are working under pressure, there are just
too many loads to handle, you think you are in the worst project ever, you
have to deal with a very bad customer and the world is completely unfair to
you, please remember this:
define under pressure.

Regards,
Himawan Nugroho
Network Consulting Engineer
WWSP IP NGN CoE – Emerging Markets
Cisco Systems International B.V
CCIE#8171 (R&S, Security, SP)

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its all bout PASMA 5

today, I just received an sms that it “officially pasma is suspend for an indefinite time limit”

Wew … Big news .. just because a small incident which was reported by as much as possible, the school to take this decision ..

then, whether pasma will be destroyed just like that?

if only by suspend pasma activities .. school felt it was stopped completely pasma .. they are wrong …

was limited to organizational activities that they stop, not our souls, not our spirit, and not our brotherhood …

We share knowledge, we share advanture, we share our lives here ..

’86 to 2011 ..
not a short journey .. nearly a quarter century, the name pasma continue to exist in memory and greeting each member ..

Borok  said “SIAPA DIA MAU MENGHENTIKAN PERGERAKAN KAMI…UDAH ADA 25 TAHUN…”

Yoyo said “We are smarter and trickiest company, so nobody can not stop us Let’s give support by Attending the forum at 15jan”

Tagor said “Ayo para alumni dukung sodara kita d sma, dgn dtg sebanyak2 nya pd hr sabtu 15 januari ini utk menunjukkan eksistensi PASMA5…!!”

Rony said ” sma 5 bukan batasan PASMA 5 untukterus eksis,PASMA 5 hanya akan dbatasi oleh tingginya langit dan dalamnya samudera..karena sesungguhnya alamlah yg menjadi rumah bagi para penggiat alam sma 5..jangan membatasi batasan kita..-pal 149-”

and i said ” its not our soul that you try to kill, its not even close to our skin…”

be brave PASMA 5..

my best regards for you

Azazel (pal_175)

nb: edited today by 175

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weekend…

saturday,  january 8th 2011

first post for this year

starting a day before,, im just arrived at 21:25 bogor time.. rendy gimme a text message, he said, he was with trizar and yoyok, eating at “kedai kita”..  and i replied  come to my cribs and bring me some food.. im so starving….

an hour later they came.. just knockin my door n said, let go to suay’s mansion.. ok.. i changed my clothes n join them.. later.. we already at suay’s.. miss u sis.. as usual.. chit chat with everything to discuss and nothing to think.. just flow with the time..

o200 hours / jan8th2011

go to home.. sleeptight… awaken at 1034hours… ZzzzzZz  sleepy…. but remember, that day, one of my best friend got married,, so i prepare to go to the wedding.. congrats dwi budi (pal 146),, have a wonderfull new beginning, open nu story of ur life.. glad to know u got married at last.. there, i also met some of pasma guys.. litle chit chat with them.. and decided.. go to cinema and watch “little F*cker”.. for the second time..

few hours later.. ( feels like over 3 hours to watch that movie.. :p).. dinner time… :D with “lele bakar madu” as the menu.. hmm yummmyyy…. bdw what is “lele bakar madu” in english.. ??..?? is it “honey grilled catfish” i guess.. wuteverr..

after that..  next destination is my lovely crib… yeeeaaa.. the remain pasma troopers are me, yoyokk,rendy and trizara.. againnn.. but this time with, tami, fany,cupu, septa, nuga and didit…. wut a beatiful nite.. story telling of the past.. our little advanture.. semeru, cikuray, and another little trip of our life.. so glad to have u guys,… we share stories, we share experiences, we share knowledges, we share night time, we share everything.. thx guys..

and the story continueesss..

didit,septa,nuga, tami say gudbye.. and people reamining just me, yoyok,trizar,rendy and cupu and fany.. hmm.. where we went to spend this night then.. after litlle discussion (read: disputation :p).. puncak is the next destination.. where exactly.. “ciloto” and order roasted corn with hot sweet tea.. suddenly i feel like urban people (orang jakarta) .. now i know,  why they love puncak so much,, when u spent all ur time with a lot of activities that involved a lot of people and alot of traffic jam and alot of tings.. its feel great when u feel sumthing diferent.. even if it feels frozen.. hahhha…

02oo hours..go down.. its really frozen here….

arrived at my crib.. again.. and sleep..  wake up at 0830, fany and cupu leaveto go home… as well as rendy.. me, yoyok and trizar went ut and find some lunch..  and ate “ayam bakar panas -taken”.. go to elos, accompanying trizar to find nu shoes.. then back home..

2100 houre.. they all back to their own cribs.. and i prepared my things… yupp.. the next morning i have flight to pekanbaru.. and here i am.. at siak- riau

posted at arara-abadi guest house with tri..

nite all

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2010 >< 2011 ……in between

23:19 @ Gunung Jati Hospital (cirebon)

the age of this year already in the end… the planet earth almost completed its tasks of circling the sun to make one full circle…

Every single living creature in this planet is celebrating arrival of new year.. animals, plants, even poeple.. with their own uniqe ways..

for us.. gather with friends and barbequing, sharing stories, ar event just spending times, wachting sky and doing nothing… feel the emptiness.. feel the beauty of this planet..

but sum people do it with different way.. they pray for sumone that they love so much.. they pray for the healing of their loved ones.. yaaa.. this is how they do it here.. in hospital… they just need one miracle that happened in the new year which will soon arrive…now, this is wut i experienced here, in gunung jati hospital..

just now many prayers and hopes are voiced for nu year wishes,,, but there is an equal..

to feel the greatness of God by realizing our smallness..

happy nu y’er 2011 guys,, many happy returns for all ur pray and hopes…

br// azazel

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